My Stupid Mouth

My stupid mouth,
Has got me in trouble.
I said too much again.
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see she was offended.
She said well anyway...
Just dying for a subject change.
Oh, its another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said think before speaking
No filter in my head.
Oh, whats a boy to do?
I guess he better find one soon

We bit our lips. she looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the
Salt and pepper shaker.
And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what just
Slipped out and what went wrong.
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed.
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said think before speaking
No filter in my head.
Oh, whats a boy to do?
I guess he better find one.
Im never speaking up again. it only hurts me.
Id rather be a mystery than she desert me.
Oh Im never speaking up again.
Starting now
One more thing.
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But its all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked, I just wanna be funny.
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire
Im never speaking up again it only hurts me.
Id rather be a mystery than she desert me.
Oh Im never speaking up again
Starting now

**********************************************

Had some serious tussle with not 1 not 2 but 3 of my friends.Although each one was in  separate instances… all of them said the same thing “you cannot just say whatever u like..think before u speak”..I wasn’t abusing and was in anger ..nor i had a intention of hurting them..they were all just statements, sumthing which i said simply and eh yeah.. thoughtlessly..  may be i shud have put some thought before saying things…  funny thing i consider myself as a big thinker..stupid me.

So I shut myself for some time,so that i don’t get into trouble.. at least for now (:P)…………………..the more i thought abt it i found something

I could have got angry and thought…

1. They are stupid
2. they are rude
3. they don’t respect my friendship

If  I want to look at it positively...i can say

1. they are listening to me and really give importance to wat i say
2. they are honest enough to tell it to my face rather bitching abt me with others
3. they really care & want me to change my negatives to be a better person

Everything happens for a reason… but what reason?  its all in the way you look at it…its like the shoe salesman who went to a new city and said with frustration “ there is no market cuz no one wears shoes there” while another shoe salesman went to the same city and came back  with glee and said “There is a huge market cuz no one wears shoes there”

I am like the second salesman and see things positively..(but frankly speaking  i cant sell anything :P).

The GEEK The Ghost -11

This story is based on some true events, however it has been fictionalized and all persons appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real people, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

"So you are saying this is not a proposal or something like that?" asked OD2

They were all sitting in the Cafe Galactica -OD1,OD2, & HEX1 , the Human Expert who is certified professional in studying human behavior.It is rumored that he was actually trained in earth by living among the earthly mortals.

OD2: but i have seen in the archives ,this is the same words they say when they make or enter a commitment

HEX1:true,but u are taking it in face value.Just because they said doesn't been they are committed to each other plus same words mean different things in different contexts

OD2 : but the context here hold good right? i mean he is a boy she is a girl, both are single ,talk daily.

HEX1: It is not that simple.There are many more variables involved in it.I cannot explain sitting in a coffee shop .You have to study million cases before generalizing.Also i have seen the earlier transcripts and they both have said the same lines to other people too,close entities,biological relations like parents,brothers etc

OD1 stopped sipping his Grande Latte and broke his silence.

OD1: what's your point?

HEX1: they are just Good Friends, Nothing more Nothing less

***********************
"We are just good friends,nothing more nothing less"

DJ said it out loud as if it was a press meet and took a sip of Iced Green Tea. He was surrounded by his friends in Infinitea

"ooo really??" "yeah right " "i believe you man" " "If you say so" " "are you sure?"

His friends responded with many varied answers,but none of them seem to accept what he said.

DJ: i am sure

"hmm ...so how was the date?"

DJ: i told u..it wasn't a date ..i just took her to her aunts place .It was far and she didn't know the place,so i just went with her. It was not like we went to a movie or dinner sumthing

"hmm so u were planning for a movie & dinner?"

DJ: c'mon guys... cut it out

"ooh u getting serious ? you like her... don't you?"

DJ: of course I like her but only as a friend

"hmm actually she 's good .. you can go for her"

DJ: yeah rite......actually she's too good for me

so if she's okay wid u , u wudnt mind right?? do u want us to talk to her?? we will be happy to do it

DJ: oh plzz ...stop it.. nuthn like that..how many times u have seen me speaking to her in class

"thats y we were wondering how come u went out with her"

DJ: OMG!!..... i told u it wasn't like that.Its like ..(DJ's mobile rang)

...DG CALLING......

"ooooo look who's calling"

DJ: ssshhhh, (picked up the phone) "hellos"
"no, tell me"
"infinitea"
"with the guys"
"hmm" hmm"
"sure"
"no problem"
"its k"
"pakka na 6.30. . my bus stop"
"bye"
"hmm"
"hmm"
"yes"
"bye"
He hung up and looked up.His friends were all grinning big time
"one more date huh?"

DJ: Oh plzzz will u guys Shut up

"don't get worked up lover boy... we didn't say anything"

DJ: guys seriously ..there's nothing between us..don't go spread any "hot news"

we know man ..just messing wid you..just don't get in any trouble

DJ: i will take care .. thanks
*************************************
6.20 am

The streets were filled with morning mist..Lazy Bangalore was still rolling under the sheets.

DJ was walking as fast as he could..he felt the his heart was pounding "Last time" he thought "let it be the first & last time....no more dating....no more chatting.... just hi ,hello thats it...have enough trouble already"

As he neared the bus stop..he froze.....

DG was sitting inside the bus stop..She was shivering due to the cold air.

Something melted away from his mind...

"hi"
"hi"
"when did u come?"
"15mins before "
"ooh..but u said 6.30 how come u reached soon"
"no traffic na so reached early"

DJ was feeling bad for keeping her wait in this cold.

DG : one bus went sumtime back
DJ: u could have gone na
DG: i was waiting for u
*****
They got in the bus
******
"How is ur aunt? "
" we were talking all night.... didn't sleep at all"
"Sleep now.. it will be atleast an hour before we reach college"
"hmm"
DJ looked at her sleeping peacefully.He kept looking....His mind was calm , there was no rush..it was good feeling .....he remembered how he when he saw his Dear Dolphin ...this was nothing like that... He was sure ... now all his doubts flew away....

DG opened he eyes and saw him looking her.

"what?"

"nothing go to sleep"

"k"

His mind was clear - She trusts me... I trust her...I don't care what they say, what others think..we understand each other..and nothing else matters....
DJ said to himself "We are friends and Come what may we will be best friends forever... nothing more, nothing less"

To be Continued..........................................

THE GEEK & THE GHOST - 10

This story is based on some true events, however it has been fictionalized and all persons appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real people, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.


THE SYSTEM
OD2:the cupids have been deployed
OD1:I can see that…their intimacy levels are increasing
OD2: u look tired may be u need to rest
OD1:Yes but i want to see the initial reactions
…………………….
OD2: this is unbelievable..look at the IFR’s ..we have already level 4
OD1 : i have a feeling it may go even more higher
…………………..
OD2:This is great ……breached level 7
OD1: hmm make sure everything is stable
OD2:don't u feel its going too fast..shouldn't we inform him(info CoV)
OD1:unless it breaches level 10 nothing to worry about
OD2:what if it does
OD1:its highly unlikely..it will stabilize by Level 10
OD2:ok i will take care of this..you take break
OD1: hmm …see that indicator if it goes to yellow be careful ..if it reaches orange call me immediately
it will go up to red also but its highly unlikely
OD2: don't worry i will take care of it
……………………………………….
OD2 was scrambling his pizza ..he loves late night shifts…bcoz it will be very peaceful and only he will be there to monitor the logs.
He was checking the logs of GG..it was rising steadily but did not go above the level 10
………………………
OD1 was in his dorm resting with the slight sound of Buddha trance filling his room.He suddenly got the prompt…its was OD2 “we gotta situation you better come here”
when he reached OD2 was looking pale .He has never seen him like that.He soon got to know why.The indicator was glowing red.
OD1: why didn't u call me before
OD2: i don't know suddenly it jumped to yellow and by the time i prompted you it went to Red
OD1: get me the logs
OD1 looked carefully the logs of GG which records all the interactions between DJ &DG
OD1: wow looks like the cupids are working better than i thought.
OD2:oh yeah, they are on a roll here – Boyfriend , Girlfriend ,u r the best and all the heart ,smiley stuff.
BEEP BEEP BEEP
The indicator went one more level up.
OD2: we better tell him
OD1: Don’t call, just send a prompt
OD2: okay
BBBEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGG
BEEEEEENG BEEEEEEEEENG BEEEEEEEEEEENG
OD2: what the ….?
OD1: check the status
OD1 quickly grabbed the intercom called for backup
OD1: This is OD1 from sector 86 . come in Console
Console: Console here, go on
OD1 : need emergency back up,our network is crashing
Console: right away sir ,I will deploy the SRT(System Recovery Team)
OD1:plz hurry thanks.
OD2 was running here n there checking all dashboards
OD1: You are sweating
OD2:really …then give me a tissue…are you kidding me ? what is all this..do something
OD1 smiled like a saint : its an ESS protocol – Emergency System Shutdown.
OD2: ESS? Is it normal?
OD1: its rare , but its internal preventive measure.
OD2;huh?
OD1:don’t worry he won’t screw you .but we have to figure out why the ESS protocol was triggered
OD2: hmm .
OD1: check the final transmission
Since the displays were down , OD2 took a print out of the last log report
OD2: You have Gotta be Kidding me!!!
OD1: what happened ??
OD2:I think we got the reason ?
OD1 cant believe what he was seeing.
LOG F34DTKNE - 2.00 Am EST
“I love u :)”
”I love u too :)”
###@#@#@##@###
Fatal System Error
Error ode 21
Transmission Failed

To Be Continued………………

Happy Indepedence Day

THIS IS FOR U

Yes. This post is for YOU.

Don’t look around …its really ‘U’

so who are you?

You are one of kindest souls who took some time out of your busy life to read my scribbling and  I would like to say a Big Heartfelt “THANK U” to stress on how much this means to me.

I met my friend today..I meet him daily and we hangout for 2-3 hrs daily to chat all nonsense..It helps me take my mind off all the stress of work.

Talking about stress , its not my work that’s stressful (because i like what i do) its the people around me who are the reason for my stress.Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying they are causing the stress, its my inability to give proper attention to them which is causing all the  stress to me.

I met a friend today and after initial Q’s like how r u? how is work? how is life? etc etc she told “ i keep reading your blog from time time”

OMG!!! I had almost forgot my blog..

I didn’t know she reads my blog and there is good chance that there might be others like her who read my blog occasionally and yet i don't know who they are..

I haven’t blogged for quite some time with lot many things going on around me……

So Am I so Busy? – not really

The ppl with whom i used to talk frequently or with whom i want to talk frequently are busy with their lives and ppl who want to speak to me say i have become so busy with my life (my dad called up one day and wanted a appointment to talk with me – although he meant as a joke  I felt very bad)

Truth is I feel something is missing ..like in Stuart Little, he says there is a “empty space”   I am not sure what i am missing …may be its my friends ,the daily hi, hellos, genuine ones not like in office as a formality .

i can see my friends drifting apart ,the degrees of separation seems to increase.Yeah i know life’s like that only..but

wherever you go ,whatever you do,i would pray for your well being because you have took your time of your busy life to read my scribbling…

and i cant THANK U enough for that.

 

When Nature Calls

No ,this is not about the metabolic activity we all do every day (one thing where no one fails ).

Today, I left office much earlier than my usual time ,didn’t want to hangout with friends (cost cutting ). Anyways i took a Volvo near empty and the FM  [at least that still works in my dumb ericsson,Sony is still sound ] played my “color of music”.

I got out the bus with the music still playing

i took a walk along the park

where the sun was still setting,

its funny to see dogs bark

without any sound (headphones)

It started to get dark

i slowly crossed the play ground

the breeze made me to take my headphones off

i heard the birds chirping with glee

as if they were happy to see me

I realized simple things of nature brings 

peace to my mind more than precious things

So when natures calls me

i would attend with glee

 

pls bear my poetic insanity…..

love all (at least try ) 

MJ

The Geek & The Ghost -9

This story is based on some true events, however it has been fictionalized and all persons appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real people, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

DG: chup kar, don't irritate me
DJ:wat did I do?
DG: how can u say that without knowing sumone?
DJ:I didn't mean it that way
DG:i didn't expect this from u
DJ: u didn't understand what i am telling u
DG:huh? i don't want to understand
DJ:wat do u want me to do?
DG: chup kar.. dn irritate me..go disappear
DJ:k

DJ signed off

DG (omg… this guy na.. uff…)

DJ (all girls are stupid why don't they understand.??.)

………..

DJ normally is silent but sumtimes he talks a lot..way over the line and that often gets him into trouble.He fails to understand that sumtimes its best to leave sumthings untold regardless whether its true or right.When there is a problem he want to talk it through and wants closure asap.

DG is normally not silent but when sumone irritates her she just shuts them out.She doesn't want to talk things through but leave the issue.After some days, she clears it off from the table and things become normal again.

As DJ & DG, chatted a lot,misunderstandings started cropping up and since they had different approaches in solving problems the peace process was more complicated than the actual problem.

Every time they fought ,DJ thought “ok this is it..its going to end.we wont talk anymore”.But he didn't want to end it.  He gave some serious thinking about wat to do abt the matter and how to resolve it.

DG on the other hand,does not talk to him for a day or two,and then again starts the conversation as if nothing had happened. Her thinking was “friends fight.. so wat?..its no big deal”

DJ will be amazed to see her chat without a trace of their fight.on the other hand he was little disappointed to see her take it lightly while he pondered over it for a long time.

somehow their connection survived..

………..

It was a busy day in THE SYSTEM as usual.

The OPS DUO were tracking all the progress of “Project GG”.It was becoming one of the biggest projects of all time.They were even planning to get it added in the A* list which has dedicated lines.But they have still lots to do to get there.Even though the IFRs were steadily increasing,they needed something to accelerate its pace.

  Operations Duo 1:i don't think its a good idea

Operations Duo 2 :do u have sumthing in mind?

OD1: honestly nothing

OD2 : well we have to do sumthing

OD1:yes,but we gotta be careful

OD2:hmm we are in critical position

OD1:i know.He(Info CoV) wants to listed in A*.at the same time i don’t want to ruin the current     progress

OD2:Why do u think it will ruin this?

OD1:don't u see the logs?

OD2:i do see their logs

OD1:every time they fight,the IFR fluctuates than their bloody stock markets and there’s no log for a day or two but they do exhibit frequency signals

OD2: u have been going thru their metadata reports.. aren't u?

OD1: yes.. are u not?

OD2: good heavens ..i am not crazy like you

OD1:sumtimes u have to cross reference

OD2:whatever….anyways wats the plan now?

OD1:(sighs deeply)..deploy the cupids..lets see wat magic love can do?

OD2:u just told its not a good idea!!

OD1:I know wat i said..given the circumstances i think we have to take some risk

OD2:wat abt his approval

OD1:actually he mentioned the same idea very early,i convinced him not to go for it.So he will be more than happy to give clearance

OD2: that's y u agreed? now i get it

..

OD2:U think it will work? i mean will they actually become… u knw?

OD1:no they wont..but it will work alright

OD2:i don't get it..then y are we doing this

OD1:just do it..its like a crash test

OD2:oh…now i get it..

………..

MEMO from Info COV 

I hereby approve the deployment of CU-0456-19-86 –code K1 for Project GG and hereby assign OD1 & OD2 as the Task-Masters for this operation

…….

To be Continued ……….

MJ – Dance in Peace

   “Show’s over Boys.Lets pack up”

No I am not one of those reporters covering the ‘MJ Memorial’ the hottest story in town.I am not blaming them either.. that’s their job.I waited for the media hype to settle down. so that i can pay my tribute peacefully and so here goes…

The cameras stopped Rolling

And the cranes came Down

The world went home Sobbing

Leaving the King Alone

One Soul is Lost

And the World feels Lonely

One chance Lost

To see the King in all his Glory

 

Tonight was supposed to be Thriller Night

But I cant see the Zombies at my Sight

The King has left the Stage

But the traces of his Moonwalk still Remains

You were Right

They Didn’t Care About You

They called You Whacko

Now they are chasing the Ghost of Jacko

I think they have all gone Whacko.

 

The King wont Rest in Peace

As His Soul was filled with Dance

I could see him from my room

  Dancing all night in the Moon

 

Oh MJ..I wish you be here tonight with us

for the empty stage haunts us

more than your Thriller Ghosts

Our hearts are gone Cold

Only Your music

Can Heal the World

The Geek and the Ghost-8

This story is based on some true events, however it has been fictionalized and all persons appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real people, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

DG:Hellos
DJ:Hellos
DG:sup?
DJ:Assignment
DG:k
DJ:wat abt u
DG:watching movie
DJ:had dinner?
DG:no mood
DJ:K
………………..
DJ:Hellos
DG:Hellos
DJ:wat u doing
DG:searching for a song
DJ:k
DG:wat abt u
DJ:ted talks
DG:huh?
DJ:it has lectures n presentations regarding innovation n stuff like that
DG:kk …don't study too much
DJ:hehehe ok don't download too much
……………….
DJ:hellos
DJ:u thr??
DG:hmm
DJ:wat happen? u sad
DG: S .but hw do u knw?
DJ:i have spies
DG: then ask ur spies itself y i am sad
DJ:i have not authorized them to get to u that close
DG:heehhehe
DJ:tell me
DG:nuthn yaar…
DJ:if u don't want to tell me thats fine i wont ask u but don't tell me theres nuthn obviously sumthing is bothering u
DG:arrey ..Feroz Khan passed away na he was my fav.just seeing his songs thats all
DJ:ooooh ok,,,hmm its sad..i have seen his movie i think…too bad he’s gone
DG:hmm  i have seen all his movies he was my fav of all
DJ:hmm that too at this young age
DG:huh??? young age?? he is almost 90
DJ:90 really?? didnt he act with kareena kapoor?
DG:nahiiiii...stupid he is another guy…Feroz khan was a very old bollywood actor
DJ:me stupid?? every bollywood actor is sum khan or kumar…u stupid the actors all stupid bollywood is stupid..thats y i don't see such lame movies
DG:chup kar..this is regional bias i tell u..lolz
DJ:hahahaha …may be it is
DJ:but tell me if he dies y u feel bad ..its not like u knw him personally
DG:but yaar don't u feel bad when sumone dies
DJ:nt really hundreds of people die everyday i cannot sit n cry for them
DG: u don't understand…
DJ:yes i really don't understand y u feeling bad about some old guy who u don't even knw personally
DG:chup kar dn irritate me..go do ur stupid assignment
DJ:hehehe ok ok..there nuthing called stupid assignment  its the people who give it r stupid
DG:whatever the assignment r stupid ppl who give it r stupid and ppl like u who do it r also stupid
DJ:hahahahhah…..ok ok i accept ur smart coz u don't do any of them
DG: :P
……………
DG:oye
DJ:good evening my lady
DG:hehehehe my lady??
DJ:its how English Gentleman address women
DG:u r so formal..i am very informal with my friends
DJ:gud i like that ..but wat to do i am like this only..
DG:gud yaar..i like decent guys
DJ:yep i am one decent guy
DG:hehehe not all times i guess
DJ:y u saying that
DG: don't act smart I saw u leching at that girl n the second row
DJ:  i am guy cant help it….
DG:hehehehe its k..as long its gal ur leching at
DJ:oh plzzzzzzzz
…………………………………………………..
DG:oye
DJ:hmm
DG: wat is RIP
DJ: Rest in Peace…Jackson is dead
DG:hmm yeah gotto to knw
DJ: i cant believe he is dead
DG: Y? u like him so much?
DJ:ofcourse i used to dance for his songs in school competitions
DG: but u only told me ppl die evryday u cannt sit n cry for all blah blah blah..gave me all that gyaan
…
DG:u thr?
DJ:s
DG:sry didn mean to hurt u
DJ:no its k…i am sorry now i know how u felt the other day
DG: hmm…now cheer up
DJ:hmm i will
DG:
DJ:
………………………………………………….
DG n DJ chatted everyday…all night..in weekends all day & night..they knew exactly what was going on in each others daily lives.They had completely different perspectives of life..different cultural backgrounds very different tastes in almost everything..in spite of all that sumthing kept them connected.. it was the attention they gave each other daily.Over the days their friendship grew strong which eventually brought complications to their friendship…
Will DG & DJ able to handle the obstacles they will come across in the near future…??

To Be Continued…..

Second Chance by Shinedown:

My eyes are open wide

By the way I made it through the day
I watch the world outside
By the way I'm leaving out today

I just saw Haley's Comet, she waved
Said, "Why are you always running in place?"
Even the man in the moon disappeared
Somewhere in the stratosphere

Tell my mother, tell my father I've done the best I can
To make them realize this is my life, I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance



Please don't cry one tear for me
I'm not afraid of what I have to say
This is my one and only voice
So listen close, it's only for today

I just saw Haley's Comet, she waved
Said, "Why are you always running in place?"
Even the man in the moon disappeared
Somewhere in the stratosphere"

Tell my mother, tell my father I've done the best I can
To make them realize this is my life, I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

Here is my chance
This is my chance

Tell my mother, tell my father I've done the best I can
To make them realize this is my life, I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance